rediscovering eden
But I wrote them for you
And anywhere I would be with you
No matter where, but for now we're here
So let's spin around again in this field of flowers we're in
-Sixpence None the Richer,'Field of Flowers'
dailies
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
11:01 PM
Just last Wed I was happily babbling about all the free time I would have now that I was jobless.
Come Fri Rebecca needed me again to type addresses.
And then the HR lady dropped her bombshell that I would be rehired for the next 2 months.
So on Monday it was back to work.
This is the second time and I'm sick of feeling completely let down.
Thank goodness for labour day, although it was full of labour for me.
Tuesday is house-cleaning day and my mother went full out this time.
Helped her refill the bean bag chair while watching goong amongst other things.
Had to re-watch half of the first 12 episodes because I had forgotten everything down to the names.
Yes very very lame.
I'm quite determined to finish it by the end of next week now that my interest in it has been revived.
I love their songs.
I dread work tomorrow.
On Monday I had to take half day because the publications side which re-hired me weren't around at all to brief me.
Tomorrow I'm quite afraid it'll be the same.
It'll be an utter waste of time sitting and waiting for them to come and tell me what they need me to do.
Worst of all I sit in the aisle seat where all the execs walk past and stare at me
every single time.
I can't read, I couldn't even surf Yahoo without them looking when I had free time during the previous job.
I feel like putting up a sign explaining my situation.
I hope the 2 months is an exaggeration.
Except for the first 3 months in the Academy when I worked under CONP, the time span they needed me for usually was a great exaggeration.
I'm sure I can finish most tasks very quickly to add to that.
Hopefully I'll be an unemployed bum once more.
I'm just tired.
I'm learning that money is all very well and good, and work is great in that it keeps you from brooding and dwelling on problems, and takes away boredom,
but none of this ever makes up for lack of time for myself.
Is that selfish?
But I have many things I want to chase after too.
Money will always just be the means and tool to getting somewhere.
