dailies
Monday, July 16, 2007
12:32 PM
i've decided to move to lj.
no reasons.
i was terribly bored at work one day.
http://wistariafever.livejournal.com/=)
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
10:16 PM
Haven't been here for while!
Happily bumming hee.
Went for FASS Camp last week for 4 out of 5 days.
Alot more fun than expected.
Hostel bathrooms also nicer than expected haha.
Would like to post pictures but haven't got any yet.
Too long to describe it here but one thing it lived up to its 'hyper' rep (for me lah. One guy I met said it was quite blah.) They had VERY original cheers haha!
Nice ogls and og mates, so it was a good experience I guess.
Got a bad bad sunburn all over face from the last day.
For once I'm really quite dark!!
Of course more red than brown but more brown than the last time not bad!
I actually look sporty! Muahahaa
I'm in a binge-ing (how do you spell it?) mood.
Cannot cannot stop eating.
If I don't eat for 3 hours I feel very weird.
Like pregnancy or something ahaha.
Unsightly tummy as a result.
Ezra's friend lent us Five Men In Black, I think it's really not bad at all.
Best boyband I've heard in a long long while. For J pop at least. I was quite surprised, thought that BoA was the only crossover singer to do J music but guess I must be very outdated yes? Haha.
Have yet to hear Shinhwa though! Would love to.
Not to make a generalisation, but K male singers do have more striking voices. Deeper, which I like! J male singers sound quite high-pitched really.
Jap lessons are terribly confusing. I can't wait for the once a week thing to start actually. I can't keep upppppp!!!!!
Yesterday we started learning casual conversation, which is practically un-learning all the formal thingys we learnt so far.....and not even stuck properly in my head yet laa.
Hoping to meet cdrwz this Sat!!!!!!!
Let's have a good fun time like the old days okay people! =D
Loves~
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
10:02 PM
Lost my job last thurs.
It was a shock because they only told me 5.30 pm when I was knocking off.
No more money. =(
Going for TPJ's choir concert tomorrow at VCH.
It's so deja vu.
I can still remember last year's one so clearly. It seems like it only happened just a month ago.
I have been procrastinating with my acceptance.
I think because I don't really want to go back to school.
This transition period is really the nicest after all.
You get to bum around without any feeling of guilt, because the exams and jc are over, and you have some kind of comfortably assured future far off waiting.
You'll never get this period anymore.
After the next graduation bumming at home just means you're jobless and penniless and a burden to the parents.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
6:44 PM
I feel like such an idiot.
I really don't know what I want to do in life.
I know I like to draw, but that's about it.
SMU granted me a study award, so the interviewers weren't just being kind as I thought after all.
I would like to feel happy, but it's just the wrong university!!
I'm utterly confused, don't know where to go.
I would like to save my mom $20 000, and she's pushing me to go SMU because she feels that pure arts is impractical, and of course she will have so much more funds left for my brothers and all but I don't see what's so great over at SMU's SS curriculum.
So to save myself out of the mess I decided okay shall aim for political science in NUS, secondly history.
Useful right?
More 'useful' than eng lit anyway.
But the money is really staring me in the face and I can't ignore it.
I said I would seriously consider SMU if they gave me such an award thing and it has actually happened.
UGGHHHH
What I'd like right now is for someone to choose for me in such a way that I irreversibly have to go to the university picked.
Drats! So little time left to watch Goong.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
11:29 PM
I feel like...I really don't know anyone anymore.
I'm suddenly very much out of place.
I don't know what to say to people I meet, I don't know what to tell them.
Usually I really have nothing to tell, and that makes me a dull companion.
I don't know what to ask anymore.
Am I always asking the wrong questions?
Everyone's changing.
I can't keep up.
I'm too tired to keep up any longer.
I've really really been trying very hard all this time for so long.
I'm changing too, but like Monica said, you end up changing differently from your friends once you're apart from them.
I don't know what to do.
11:01 PM
Just last Wed I was happily babbling about all the free time I would have now that I was jobless.
Come Fri Rebecca needed me again to type addresses.
And then the HR lady dropped her bombshell that I would be rehired for the next 2 months.
So on Monday it was back to work.
This is the second time and I'm sick of feeling completely let down.
Thank goodness for labour day, although it was full of labour for me.
Tuesday is house-cleaning day and my mother went full out this time.
Helped her refill the bean bag chair while watching goong amongst other things.
Had to re-watch half of the first 12 episodes because I had forgotten everything down to the names.
Yes very very lame.
I'm quite determined to finish it by the end of next week now that my interest in it has been revived.
I love their songs.
I dread work tomorrow.
On Monday I had to take half day because the publications side which re-hired me weren't around at all to brief me.
Tomorrow I'm quite afraid it'll be the same.
It'll be an utter waste of time sitting and waiting for them to come and tell me what they need me to do.
Worst of all I sit in the aisle seat where all the execs walk past and stare at me
every single time.
I can't read, I couldn't even surf Yahoo without them looking when I had free time during the previous job.
I feel like putting up a sign explaining my situation.
I hope the 2 months is an exaggeration.
Except for the first 3 months in the Academy when I worked under CONP, the time span they needed me for usually was a great exaggeration.
I'm sure I can finish most tasks very quickly to add to that.
Hopefully I'll be an unemployed bum once more.
I'm just tired.
I'm learning that money is all very well and good, and work is great in that it keeps you from brooding and dwelling on problems, and takes away boredom,
but none of this ever makes up for lack of time for myself.
Is that selfish?
But I have many things I want to chase after too.
Money will always just be the means and tool to getting somewhere.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
11:08 PM
I'm very tired, and so so cold. My legs feel numbed even after all the walking I did today.
Looking at art can be therapeutic. I never realized that before.
Today I found two new wonderful artists online at deviantart.com while surfing at work.
One was a photographer, the other was - hmm this is hard to describe. Her work was registered under the manga/anime category, so yeah, that kind of artist.
It was so beautiful and took my mind off the pain for a little while.
I felt normal at the end of it.
I was especially amazed by some of the photographer's work; pictures of HongKong she took.
The other artist had beautiful intricate line work. I love the lines of a drawing more than the colours when it comes to manga/anime art.
So many of these kind of artists have beautiful colouring and photoshopping and whatnot effects but the drawing itself is nothing special.
I wish I could show some of their works here but that would be ripping or redistributing and they're very particular on that.
They made a very bright spot in a day that peaks the horrible past one and a half weeks.
That and another comforting present the day brought me.
I've been fired!!!!
YAY
No no don't get the idea that work was awful, it was a very nice workplace and Monica is the best work mate anyone could ask for. I will miss her A LOT.
And I may hopefully be re-employed there as some sort of odd-job intermittent temp.
This is a little doubtful because they're chockful of temps at the moment, and odd jobs can therefore just be passed around, but I'm holding out for that. I really want that kind of intermittent job at the moment, and I'm not too cash hungry--- yet.
I'm just so happy that I can sleep in once more!
All you night owls don't know what that means to me.
I've been running on spare batteries for the past two weeks and I've been like zombie pushing herself through the day and falling asleep every spare moment.
Monica and I ate at the Soup Spoon today and I'm glad we did. Had a great time.
We also asked for the number of the trishaw man so he can take us to Orchard one day =))
He's called Henry!
And for now till the next job or whatever comes around, I've got nearly two years of catching up to do.
I can't wait!!!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
6:51 PM
My knees are very creaky. It's like the sound of twigs snapping when I walk around the office, and the sound is magnified by the silence of the place so the whole world can hear. I'm so embarrassing I can't stand myself.
I have progressed to uploading law journals and annual reviews. It's very nice work because there's internet access and my supervisors are all on other floors, and its a very simple hassle-free job.
Sadly it's going to end soon and I will be unemployed again.
I think I'm looking forward to it.
I have so many unfinished personal projects.
But the lack of cash is going to hurt.
I got the acceptance letter from SMU today.
My mother says I should be jumping for joy.
But seriously, congratulations Wendi!!! I'm really happy for you!
You get to study and do something you can put your whole heart in and that's just great!
But you jolly well better work hard this time okay!
This Saturday we are going to *cross our fingers* register, yah only
register for the driving test.
HAHA!
I still wish I hadn't posed for that silly photograph with her.
That in itself was alright, its just the implications those ridiculous women will draw from it because of their petty spirits that hurts me.
And all the stupid comparisons I am unnecessarily going to draw to myself now.
